Quote of the day....

Courtesy is nourished by courtesy...

Screaming in pain

I just don't understand. Whenever people talk to me as they like, i don't want to deny, i do get offended sometime. i just keep to myself, i don't want to make the situation worse. but people, i do have feeling, i can't just keep silent all the time. when i reply to these sort of people on what they have said, they got angry and warn me 'cakap jaga2' and macam apa cakap 'perangai mu ani lain'. Oh duh!!!!
What the hell!!! SO WHAT ARE YOU?!!!! Does that mean u can say anything you like to me and it's ok to use offensive words and do not have to think twice or more that will i get offended by all your words with your 'very nice' attitude? so you are saying that, I must, have to mind your feeling and you guys don't have to do so? If I don't, i know your forever impression is I am the creature on this earth with the very bad attitude. Oh thanks a lot~

I am standing for the truth now.
You got angry with all that unreasonable thoughts because you guys are COWARDS who CANNOT HANDLE THE TRUTH!!!
Typical Malays. Malays seem to be so traditional all the time.

Friends...

Quote of the day
"Friend in need is a friend indeed"

Crying in pain

I thank to God for giving me tears as it helps to relieve my pain...

I really appreciate my friends as they are always there for me when I need them.

Seriously, I never thought that my life is this bad. I do not want to say anything now as people tend to manipulate things and create their own story.

It tends to be a trend to people nowadays as they wana find the shortest way to make people to be on his side. How pathetic. Sometime, I feel ashame to accept the fact that I am a Malay.

I've suffered a lot of huge problems and my life is never getting better.

It gets worse from time to time.

I am living in misery.

I thank to God for that because He makes me realise and teaches me

HOW TO APPRECIATE MY LIFE

Life is very short yet is a precious gift from him.

How many people who are granted with a good life do appreciate it?

"How cruel the world is, ask yourself. How bad the person is, mind yourself..."

"The person you thought to be your frind could be someone who is very dangerous to u...

and the person who you thought very bad could be a friend of u..."

"Do not listen and simply believe on something without knowing the whole story"

"One side could be true but it wouldn't last long when you explore from the both sides"

I am mentally and emotionally unstable at the moment... I am so sorry frens...

Please give me some time...

Quote of the day....

"Whenever I think of you, I smiled with fruitless hopes as I knew there's no more me in your heart..."

(Karau,2009)

Blog???

Hm... Perhaps this is just a short one. To be frank, I don't have any idea what to type on, but I feel like I want to put something on my blog. My apology if you don't understand what I am typing because I will just talk crap all the way~

I was in form 6 when I first heard about blog. It made me think, why do we need a blog?
Is it necessary? Almost everybody has a blog.
It made me curious and I started to search on blog.
A stupid thing perhaps, not knowing a very simple popular word.

Generally, a blog is like an online diary its either can be read by the public or selected people only.
Those who have the gut to express their opinion, be it sensitive or not, they will allow the whole world to know what they are writing. So... A question suddenly popped out from my mind.
If that is so, is it good to have a blog???
I was a member of English Debate Club at PTEB. Afraid of getting selected to represent the school (I could see from the respond of the teacher in-charge at that time), I opted out without their knowledge. hehe. The debating topic was 'Blogging is detrimental to your life'. I did have a lot to argue on but yeah...

I just activate myself with blog recently. My life is always flooded with problems that burden myself. I do have friends to express and share my problems to, but I don't think they can tolerate to always listen to me 24/7. Hm... So I try to write it on this blog...
I am not here to get some sort of attraction or sympathy from people but I don't have any other option to choose.

Blog is my only effective way to minimise my problems in my life that I can no longer tolerate their accumulation on my shoulders....

Occassionally, I tend to view people's blog and apparently they are doing the same. Sometime, by reading people's problems, it makes us to think and realise the mistakes that shouldn't be done by anyone. At the same time, if we really have the heart, we try to give our opinion and advise to these people. And to ourselves, we will try not to make such mistakes.

Change for the better =)

I am really interested reading my niece's blog. It really attracts me to read on. I know she has problems too, school's problems and so on that she shouldn't be having at her present age. Eventually, everything is expressed on the blog...
I believe u guys having a blog for some reasons to.
For whatever reasons, at least it helps you to enjoy your life.
Keep your self away from the devilish world...

O.... Wow... What am I saying???? Argh!!!!
I am just a wee bit disappointed because it is very hard for me to escape from problems.
It has become part of my life now.

I am sorry guys if you are irritated with all my posts...
What I am doing is only for one reason...
To reduce the problems i am having and try to relax my mind...

Good News,
I'm Cutta Here!

Nice but weird... keh keh

Well, Zatul likes to edit pictures so I gave her some tasks to do... Below is the result.
Nice but yeah... weird... haha

It is kind of hard for me to define what love is and what a special relationship is...

why?

When I love someone, I don't just say "I LOVE YOU" to the person, because for me it is something that can't be simply be said by words...

LOVE IS SOMETHING THAT YOU CAN FEEL... (Karau, 2009)

How do I prove my love to the person?

Well... Love is a matter of chemistry between couples... Intimate actions, unreliable sweet words and promises are just not me. I am not that type of guy. It is the chemistry which is very important. When I managed to make my beloved one happy, needs me, misses me etc I think I have proven my love. When myself feel the same, that is the time when I realise that I can feel the pure love from my beloved one.

By that time, do u think by saying 'I LOVE YOU' can convince each other?
I don't think so...

What do I hope from the person in the relationship?

Loyalty, honesty, sincerity and happiness... =)

Be committed in your love relationship so that you will be able to have a long term relationship and happy to be together...
Not to exaggerate but at least, both of you would feel that, you are perfect for each other...
(Karau, 2009)

We can have 'Sex' with anyone easily but not 'LOVE'.
If you really understand the meaning of love, it is very precious that you will never thought to spoil it. Take a good care of it every single second. Try your best to always win 'his' heart.

Sometime... One way to show our love to the person whom we love is by doing a sort of scarification... Like letting the person go...


I think I like the definition of love from 'Ketika Cinta Bertasbih...'

p/s: I have been alone for years and I really miss my good old days...

Business oh business...

When I was just a boy i had started to think of my future. A doctor or a businessman? I decided to become a doctor and took science subjects when I was in school (up to A-Level). After my A-Level, everything suddenly changed. I had to make a hard decision and ultimately, I do a business programme.

With the transition that I made, it makes me to keep on asking myself. Am I doing a right thing???
Well to start with during my first semester, I felt intimidated by a pool of people around me.
I was suffocated by their business knowledge. In every lecture that I attended, they always shot and threw answers. Well, I was with my locked mouth (ahem).

As the day passed, I began to enjoy the lectures. I have the interest and passion.
I started to fall in love with business. I started to read and make my own research.
Islamic Business Ethics, at the time was lectured by Dr. Saad Al-Haran, really intrigued me, although I kept on yawning and wished to skip his lectures. But the all the words that came out from his mouth are really useful and really applicable to our life easily. The researcg that should be done by us, was done by him. He kept on giving us articles that recently happened in Brunei. That was the moment that I always waiting for during the lecture. That was when I take business seriously. And the story about Wu Chun really inspired me... (scroll down to read about him).

It has been five months when I first initiated. I did what my lectures have told me (to the whole class to be exact). I can say it very encouraging. The profit that I earn is always more than I expected. In doing a business, bear in mind, we need to prepare ourselves, get ready to cross obstacles. The obstacles that lead us to succeed.

Ourlife is just like a Tyre. When it moves, the upper part will go down and later it goes up back. It does not happen only once, but it goes on... It is so applicable to our life. Sometime we succeed and sometime we fail. Do not get too sad if we fail because, it is time when we observe our mistakes, weakness and try to improve, fix and if possible avoid it. We always learn from our mistakes.

Business or life always has 'UPS AND DOWNS'.
If you don't experience it, you lie and you are A LIAR!!!

I always experience it. I used to like, felt so down and discouraged me to move on. Later when I realise it, listen and learn a lot from people, I started to wake up. I am now a loyal listening ear to complainers (customers...). I make all those complains as my motivation to move on, to be stronger and improve myself. Customer is always right but, I agree with my sister when she said 'Customer is not always right!' It gives me strentgh to move on! Thanks for that.

I thank immesurably to my parents because they are the one who came up with the idea to do the business that I am doing at the moment. They are my backbone in the business. Obviously, my mother doesn't stand still, she is the one who always seek for customers for me. When I got compalined, I am not the one who actually need to deall with it, she had to face it as well. I never blamed her just because the customers are from her instead I always thank her and always try my best to make her smile.

Parents, particularly a mother, always wants the best for their children. No matter what, how hard the thing would take, they definitely would do it. Unlike us, we can't do a simple order for our parents. Whenever I got scolded or something like that, I only smile as not to hurt her. If I did hurt her, it didn't actually hurt as compare to the pain she had to suffer by the time she gave birth to me =)

I take my business seriously, keep on doing research on how to improve it and also myself.
My hardworking on my business and how serious I am is hardly seen by family.
They always ask me, where have I been because it is very hard to see me at home.
I always go out to see the 'world'. Learn by myself how to be a successful business man.
I am not same as a malay saying 'Hangat-hangat tahi ayam'. When I determine, I will do it.
Prove to people that I am capable of doing it!

I will prove to my self, to my family and to people out there, one day can be a successful businessman!
Insyaallah...

Till then... Later~

Dinosaur...

I do not know why suddenly most of my words full with motivation. It it because my life is always flooded with problems actually I start to motivate myself and people? Hm... Weird and odd...

It was, just when I had a chat with my ancient friend Zatul. We were talking about education, how to succeed yadda yadda. She seems like kinda having low self-esteem and talked about failure. So I asked her quite a random answer to her question. Then, a question and answer session started...

Zatul: How hard is the course?
Me: As hard as slaughtering an aggressive dinosaur.
Zatl: Haha, you gotta be kidding! Seriously! If the dinosaur runs away, it is very impossible to chase it. Is there any other way to chase it?
Me: Definitely, use a helicopter.
Zatul: Haha, I dont have fuel.

A motivational talk began...

Well, you see... The fuel is actually your spirit. The helicopter itself is your hardworking, initiative to succeed. By the time u said u didn't have the fuel, that means u didn't have the spirit. When you didn't have the spirit you were not going to work hard and you were not going to succeed.

In exam, almost 95% of students would say, to get a marginal pass grade is enough. Let us get back to the story, if you were aiming for marginal pass grades, that means you only 'hurt' the dinosaur. It didn't even bleed it. Do you think the task that you had done satisfied you? Only certain people will be able to slaughter and kill the aggressive dinosaur. The aggressive dinosaur is actually the exam. No matter how hard the exam is but if you have the fuel to operate the helicopter, Insyaallah you'll succeed.

Zatul was then blown up to the Pluto hehe.

Well guys, does that make sense? I created that by myself just to motivate her.

Lame joke of the day: Go and buy a helicopter and fuel now. You can chase and kill the dinosaur. Hm... How about the weapon? Can you kill the dinosaur without the weapon????

Ahem... The weapon is actually the miracle or fortune that comes together with your hardworking.
Till then, tata~

My Self as a Borneo Bulletin Reporter

As usual on Friday morning, I need to wake up early to go to work.
I never expected anything special to happen on 10th July 2009, Friday until my colleague AJ asked me a waking up question:

Khairul, have you read the Borneo Bulletin? Your article is in.

My sleepy eyes suddenly opened widely. Without asking so much questions, I went down to the grocery shop to grab one. Actually you can access it online for free but you know... How would you feel if your piece of writing is read by the whole population of Brunei??? I know by now some of you would say, I didn't read it. Duh~

Below is the picture of the article that I wrote which I obtained from the website. For a better view, you can click here.



More to come on Borneo Bulletin ~ How I wish... My sis says, talk to the wall~

Lame joke of the day: I already talked to the wall what. Nothing happen meh. So how?

Ourselves or people?

I always remember what my teacher told me when I was in my secondary school.
"... why do u have to think about people, care about them when they do not even care about you..."


Somehow her saying is true.
Sometime, we do some sort of scarification for people that do not even realise nor know that we made the scarification for them. Instead, what we get in return is totally opposite, not appreciation but depreciation.

It depends on the situation. Sometime, our assumption might be wrong.

We have the brain use it wisely, we can think which one is right and which one is wrong.

Greatest life lessons:
1. Not be too lenient to people, as they wouldn't do the same as what you did.
2. Don't think too much about people, care about yourself.

Remember we are living in a cruel world.

Random

Why do we have to avoid ourselves from saying the word 'die'.
Do not deny yourself, all of us do afraid of death.
Well, people believe that our life is such a precious gift from God.
But, I am just wondering, do we really know what exactly life is?
What is the purpose of life? Why do we have afraid of death?

Once, I was asking myself, it's kinda a rude question.
Why I was born?
That question always pops out from my mind whenever I am in misery.
Quite frankly, my life is quite miserable.
I've been seeking for happiness since I was a child.
I would like to keep on smiling like what people always do.
I am certain, throughout my life, I will never be happy.

Hm...
I love being alone.
Keep myself away from people.
That's the only time when my soul at peace.
Giving my mind the only chance to forget the problems that burden myself,
just for a while should be fine.

"My life is full of endless obstacles..."

The longer our live, the nearer ourselves to death.
Lying myself on the grass of the summit at a beach,
listening to the crushing waves,
I could make an assumption.
We are waiting for ourselves to die.
While we are queuing, we should prepare ourselves to face it.
It is us who makes the decision,
either to go to the heaven or to the hell (a place in which most people are heading to).
For a person like me, I am not looking forward to my death,
but I only have to wait for it to happen.
The only thing that I should do is,
to prepare myself.

When the night comes, just before I sleep,
I keep on thinking about this.
I do not have the power to resist nor to stop it from happen.
When the time comes, there is no turning back.
My only request to God,
just before I breath out my life,
I hope God will fulfill a wish of mine that I've always been waiting for.
If it happens,
Insyaallah, I will die in peace.
I won't stop praying...
=)

Kind regards,
Karau.